Never · Rebellion

Well, Not much happening. Working on costumes, and spending waaay too much money on fabric. I'm bored, and I'm wasting waaaaay too much time on these rating communities. He he.
A lot of stuff going on. I want to get school done, but I'm so lazy. Blargh. Playing a ton of King of Fighters. I wish they'd bring KOF XI over. And SNK is working on XII, so that's awesome. I wanna plaaaaaaay! ><.
Hmmmmm... I'm loving my cosplayness rightnow. Working on Zelos. He's almost done. Need the damn wooden toggles >.>;

This entry is going to seem really weird. That's okay, because there are only a few people in the world for which it needs to make sense.

I want to thank the 'people' in my life named Erik. One of them, is with me always. He guides me and inspires me. I'm very thankful for him, for giving up a new future to stay here with me. He protects me, and I can always hear his voice. So many times I've wished that you could be here physically with me, to grow up and protect me as a proper older brother, but I also understand that you had no choice. Thank you again, for always being next to me, even when you could have moved on. I'll never forget you, even when you can finally be at peace.

And to my other Erik...
Oh how many faces I have seen you wear? You exist as this emotion that we have all faced. Each time I see you performed I love you more. Your lesson is one to all of us, that we can all learn from. Will we take our flaws and let them poison us against the world or use them as our strength? Maybe we will make the most dangerous decision, as you did, and do both. I oft wonder, in that other world of Paris what happened to you truly. Did you die alone there, as leroux wrote it, or did you watch that romance play out from afar. Better yet, did you finally find your love in her arms? I wonder. May you too find peace in the hearts of all those who share your pain.

Tonight I saw Erik's face again, in a different way. It was magnificent. And with my lover at my side. It was my sister's first time, experiencing this wonderful play of passion and sorrow. I'm happy that this could be the case. Yes, a beautiful evening it has been.

So I've been home sick with a sinus infection. It's icky. But tomorrow my boyfriend and I are going to see the Phantom of the Opera. It's gonna rock. I've seen it once before, it's my favorite musical. I love Andrew Lloyd Webber. Anyways. I've been mostly bored, playing pokemon and King of Fighters. I have a blister on my left thumb. Seriously. I wish that this last part of waiting for things would be over. I want June to be here.

It's freezing where I am. Not cool. I want to see the next Bleach episode. hmm... Things are being boring. That sucks a little.

I'm pissed off at an old friend of my best friend. She's walking on thin ice. I don't care what someone does to me, but you so much as touch a hair on Aki's head, and I'll find a way to destroy you. But that has to wait, and I'm going to go to the authorities. This woman needs help. She's obsessed.

I'm iritated at myself as well. There's this part of me that I want to get rid of, that is a childish dream of a marriage and happy life as a mother with a good husband. How can I make myself feel that it's the same, to have that happy life as a mother with a good... boyfriend...? It's the same, right?

My childhood friend is getting married soon. I'm going to be her bride's maid thingy. She always joked that I'd get married before her, even though we're six years apart. I wish her happiness.

Welll, Not much else going on. Gonna make an Advent Children AMV. yup ^^
later
--Venus

Okay so... I get to do an intro post or somethin'. Um... I like Japanese things, and music. Particularly Japanese music. I have... I dunno, three best friends. We do everything together; when we can be together. I'm a girl, and I work a part time job in the kitchen at my mom's work. It's a nursing home. I like working with the patients. Sometimes they're much more likeable than other people. I sew a lot as well. I suppose you could call me a cosplay nerd. I need to go fill in my interests, yes yes ah do. Well anyway, Nice to meet you all, if anyone's reading.
Later.
--Venus